She was breathtaking A white pantsuit, blonde hair, red lipstick, her mouth singing along to Feliz Navidad, the song I was dancing to. I couldn’t take my eyes off her and missed my cue to go to the left. One of the other dancers bumped into me “move over ”…

San Diego commune, 2006 “Angel help me, Michale is hitting on me and I really don’t want to have sex with him! I know he’s going to ask me, but I only want to have sex with Nick” It’s my friend Nina, it’s 6 pm and we have spent the…

The method itself is simple. The difficulty is in the application. It’s a 3 step approach which goes: Ask Observe Decide. This is the method I used to walk myself through the chaos of unconsciousness that was my mind. I had never been allowed to think for myself, and like…

It’s my birthday today, I am turning 10! Two numbers instead of one, finally! Since there are 100 people in the home we usually celebrate with our signs. There is a celebration every month for all the Capricorns, or all the Aries and we’ve already celebrated all the Gemini’s but…

San Diego, 2005 “I need to talk to you.” The words struck fear into my heart. That phrase always preceded punishment but I didn’t know (as usual) what I had done wrong. It didn’t help that the woman saying the words was Maggie, the wife of the leader of the…

“I’m saying, when men put so much expectation and emotional responsibility on women to act a certain way, it’s unfair. Especially in the work place,” I was in the middle of a heated discussion with a male acquaintance who had said he was going to write a book. The book…

San Diego, 2005. “Provision!” The word burst on screen, shouted by a chorus of children voices. It followed the Jingle of “In the Family we…” Each consecutive dot showing up on screen to the tone of a countdown, then a word appeared of something we did in The Family. The…

Osaka, 1997 It’s a hot and humid day. They have sent me to pass out posters and beg for money again. The process is always the same, every weekend they pick the most manageable kids and relegate us to “witnessing teams”. …

*Trigger warning for abuse survivors Circa: 1991. I am 6 yrs old and have spent all day working on my costume. We are having a costume party tonight and we can be any character we want, so I chose to be the Holy Spirit. I'm told there is a Trinity…